He Does Not Beg, He Beckons

He is the perfect Husband. He is polite, considerate and always soft spoken. He will not force His bride to yield to His touch. He will not push open the door of a closed heart. There is no forced entry. He stands at the door and knocks. He holds out His hand and beckons. He does not beg. He allows free will to turn Him down. He can take rejection, persecution, ridicule and even death. He beckons not because it would serve His best interest, but because it serves mine.

He is the servant. No servant begs to serve. Servants submit to serve. He is the ultimate servant, the humble shepherd, the submissive slave. He wants us to surrender our will to His.

Can you hear Him beckon? Surrender now.

Ephesians 5:25 Husbands, love your wives, even as Christ also loved the church, and gave himself for it.

Revelation 3:20 Behold, I stand at the door and knock: if any man hear my voice, and open the door, I will come in to him, and will dine with him, and he with me.

Worship or Worry

I get out of bed and shudder
I would rather worry than pray
Woe is me I am so scared
That’s how I start my day

Is catastrophe going to happen?
What awaits when I leave the front door
Since I don’t know the answers
I guess I will just worry some more

Self concerns crowd my mind
No time for bended knee or bowed head
Why worship and pray to my Father
I would rather worry instead

I can’t serve two gods, I know this
So I had better decide what is best
I can’t cling to both at the same time
It is in worship that I will find true rest

Matthew 6: 24 No man can serve two masters: for either he will hate the one, and love the other; or else he will hold to the one, and despise the other. Ye cannot serve God and mammon.

25 Therefore I say unto you, Take no thought for your life, what ye shall eat, or what ye shall drink; nor yet for your body, what ye shall put on. Is not the life more than meat, and the body than raiment?

31 Therefore take no thought, saying, What shall we eat? or, What shall we drink? or, Wherewithal shall we be clothed?

32 (For after all these things do the Gentiles seek:) for your heavenly Father knows that ye have need of all these things.

33 But seek ye first the kingdom of God, and his righteousness; and all these things shall be added unto you.

Too Dumb Too Poor To Breed

Dear Dumb, Poor Woman;

As a trained, compassionate, capable and caring healthcare professional, it is my carefully considered opinion that you are too dumb and too poor to breed. You neither have the social bearing, economic potential nor the intellectual wherewithal to continue to carry the life that is growing in your womb. Based upon the data collected from communities like yours from around the nation, and the globe, I would advise you not have a baby. Instead you should terminate it within the timeframe allowed by the laws of the land. By delaying this termination; technically known as abortion, you may find yourself contributing to the moral decay of our society by bearing another person who behaves just like you. This is especially important if the life in your womb has a defect! Think of how awful it would be to actually have your child born handicapped and have to live like the other handicapped people in the world. Think of what people would say if your child had birth defects and after all, who wants to spend the time and money to care for such kind of ‘people’?

There are several options I present to you. Let me explain it in terms that someone like you can easily understand. First, you could choose to have the baby forcefully pushed from your body by using some very strong hormones. This is cheaper, but it must be done early on before you can actually feel the baby growing inside of you. The baby can hardly be seen at all at that time so no one really knows what is happening, unless they test your urine or do an ultrasound of your uterus. If you catch it even earlier, like just after you have had sexual intercourse, no one has to know at all.

So it is for your own good that I strongly advise you to avoid any delay late into your pregnancy, so that we don’t have to resort to the following procedures.

“D&E” (dilation and evacuation). The physician inserts a long toothed clamp through the woman’s vagina into the uterus. She/he grabs body parts of the fetus at random, breaks them from the body and pulls them out. Finally, the head is crushed and extracted. Finally, the placenta and any remaining parts of the fetus are suctioned from the uterus.

“D&X” (dilation and extraction) The woman’s cervix is dilated. If necessary, the fetus is rotated until it is facing feet downwards. The surgeon reaches into the uterus and pulls the fetus’ body, with the exception of its head, out of the woman’s body. Surgical scissors are inserted into the base of the fetal skull, and withdrawn. A suction tube is inserted and the fetus’ brains are removed through aspiration. This partially collapses the fetal skull. The fetus is then fully removed from the woman’s body.

I hope I have convinced you of the importance of making the right decision both for you and society as a whole. Please don’t listen to anyone who says they are helping you to make decisions that favor you keeping your baby. They would have you believe that the life growing in you is special. That would mean you are special too. Who would dare believe such a thing? As I said we don’t need a world full of dumb, poor and handicapped people. One of them might grow up to be a world leader. Who would want that?

Sincerely yours with great care,

On behalf of; Rich and Powerful Professionals, Politicians,
Lobbyists and Other Nice People

Above the Dirt

Another day above the dirt
The clay from which I came
Another day to give God praise
Instead, I still complain

Why did You not grant my prayer?
Why don’t I have more stuff?
Why did You give to others?
It’s obvious they have enough.

Why did it have to rain today?
The day I chose for fun
Why not chase those clouds away?
I’d rather have more sun?

Yes another day above the dirt
The earth and common dust
Much easier to groan than grin
So much easier to fuss

But as the African proverb says
We come to a common end
A leaf spends more time on the ground
Than it does upon the limb

Psalm 150:6 Let everything that has breath praise the Lord

A Mixed Bag of Buts

I am pro-life
I am pro-drone
A mixed bag of buts
Yet I am not alone

I am pro-choice
Death penalty no good
Mixed bag of buts
Not understood

Second Amendment
High taxes, high spending
Mixed bag of buts
List never ending

We buy it in bundles
Traditional values aren’t real
Kill, enslave, and dominate
Free markets that kill

A mixed bag of buts
I like this but not that
Doesn’t matter what’s true
Don’t confuse me with fact

Terrorists wear scarves
Have strange sounding names
Like Smith, Jones and Walters
Mixed bag of buts, just the same

Like My Father

I want to be like my Father
Holy, Perfect and Kind
Forgiving Just and Peaceful
I want His thoughts in my mind

I want to know of His mercy
Filled with His unending grace
My life is totally self-centered
I want Christ to be seen on my face

Holy Spirit, make me like my Father
Give me His tender, generous love
I want to be more like my Father
And that can only come from above

Matthew 5:48 Be perfect as your Father in Heaven is perfect

Philipians 2:3 Let this mind be in you as was in Christ Jesus

Bits and Pieces

I delivered your baby in pieces
Bits of flesh a hand then a foot
I tore it from your safe body
Threw to the trash with the soot

The heart had already stopped beating
I injected it with an adult overdose
So by the time I delivered those pieces
Was it alive? No, not even close.

But the remnants put up a struggle
I scraped the remains from your womb
What God intended as nurture
I instead made it a tomb

I have no idea where those parts are
Those bits of flesh now have no breath
I delivered just bits and pieces
And I was paid for causing its death

Psalm 139:14 I will praise thee; for I am fearfully and wonderfully made: marvellous are thy works; and that my soul knows right well. 15 My substance was not hid from thee, when I was made in secret, and curiously wrought in the lowest parts of the earth. 16 Thine eyes did see my substance, yet being unperfect; and in thy book all my members were written, which in continuance were fashioned, when as yet there was none of them.

Use What You Don’t Have

“And the LORD said unto him, What is that in thine hand? And he said, A rod.”
(Exodus 4:2 KJV)

There is a blues song that goes something like this: “I started out with nothing, and I still have most of it.” I imagine that Moses felt the same way going to a people from whom he had been separated for decades and speaking to people in power who were more than a bit aloof to the suffering of those serving them. Moses felt as if he didn’t have much. God told him to use even something that might seem worthless. I hear God saying the same and to use what we do not have.

Since our return to Philadelphia a few years ago, we have been in language study. We still do know American English; however, we had to learn how to speak using terms and concepts from which we have been far removed for almost 20 years while we served in Kenya.

Terms such as pro-life or healthcare debate don’t roll off our tongue as easily as malaria epidemic or malnourished orphans. We speak a different language, and we have had to really use what we don’t have to gain momentum for the causes to which God has called us.

We used what we did not have. Using our home church as our base, we sent out a survey to churches and the community asking them what were the most pressing problems they faced. Our initial idea was that pro-life and the healthcare debate would be very high on the list. But when the surveys were returned, we realized just how naïve we were. We did not even ask the right questions. People wrote in their own responses. The principal one was “We need mentoring for our young men and women.”

With nothing in our hands to do this, we turned to those who had the calling. God used them to shape our cause.

We participated in two large forums on pro-life among African American Christian leaders. Our focus has been more in tune with promoting families; not just on the woman and her child, but on the circumstances that led to her impregnation, including how to involve the father of the child.

We have worked on promoting counseling and a gun buy-back program as well as rehabilitation and reuniting Returning Citizens (a.k.a. those released from jails), and are moving toward establishing a healthcare center for those who “fall between the cracks” in the medical system.

We started out with nothing, but it becomes clearer day by day that God is moving in our lives to make a difference, especially in areas that we know nothing about.

Just Another Guy

Without the Resurrection
He is just another guy
Just one more fanatic
With another cause to die

Just a man who felt important
Just a man who did much good
Just a man who lived his life
As best as he felt he could

But because He rose from death
Because He felt its sting
Because He knew its sorrow
He alone can bring

New life to all who know Him
Perfect peace to all who claim
That He is not just another guy
God incarnate, Christ Jesus is His name

1 Corinthians 15:55 O death, where is thy sting? O grave, where is thy victory?

Good News Bad News

‘Are you monogamous?’

She looked down as I talked to her. I am not sure if it was fear, shame or a mixture of both. I was glad that the female nurse was there with me to witness the conversation and hold this 20 year old girl’s hand.

‘I don’t know what that means, she answered.’

‘Do you have more than one sexual partner?’

‘Not in the last 4 months.’

I moved on; ‘I wish I could tell you something different, but these warts in your private parts are not only difficult to treat, but you most likely never be able to have sexual intercourse without the chance of spreading them to your partner.’

I hate this kind of discourse, because I feel as though I am inflicting deeper wounds and I only have 15 minutes to do so and then try to stitch it back together in a nice package of correct diagnosis and codes. Medicine and compassion don’t mix in today’s fast paced, need to fix it now and save money at the same time culture.

What makes it worse is this is the difficult ‘good news- bad news’ kind of conversation. That is the good news being you won’t infect anybody if you don’t have sex and the bad news is you should not have sex. It is not what any one wants to hear, especially upon entering the second decade in life.

If I tell the truth, I am going to accused or at least perceived as being cold, callused, uncaring and possibly even unprofessional by many and a narrow minded conservative bigot by others. I sit and ponder the dilemma at my desk for a few minutes, knowing that most likely whatever I say, I must neither betray, nor display my moral convictions. I can only give my well thought out scientific professional opinion.

As I consider the nationwide statistics I have no other choice than to confront the person in front of me as if she bore some dreaded contagion shown on horror movies. The CDC is well aware of the contagion that confronts the nation and world, and documents it in several of its publications.

Just one illness alone is cause for alarm. In 2011, a total of 1,412,791 cases of Chlamydia trachomatis infection were reported to the Centers for Disease Control and Prevention (CDC). This is the largest number of cases ever reported to CDC for any condition. This case count corresponds to arate of 457.6 cases per 100,000 population, an increase of 8.0% compared with the rate in 2010. Rates of reported chlamydial infections among women have been increasing annually since the late 1980s, when public programs for screening and treatment of women were first established to avert pelvic inflammatory disease (PID) and related complications. (http://www.cdc.gov/std/stats11/Surv2011.pdf)

This same report goes on to document the continued rise in every disease category including the prevalence of syphilis and gonorrhea in select groups: These populations are most vulnerable to STDs and their consequences. They include women and infants, adolescents and young adults, racial and ethnic minorities, MSM (men who have sex with men), and persons entering corrections facilities.

My personal bias is that poverty and poor or absent parenting plays a significant role in much of this profile. However, I would be remiss to add that my clinic is not in an impoverished area and most of the youngest patients are accompanied by their parents.

In 2011 the first and second highest rates of gonorrhea were amongst women 20-24 and 15-19 years of age. The steady increase in these illnesses is mirrored in men in the same age brackets.

So I still tread lightly when giving my professional opinion as I know it will not be received well.

I return to the room where she remains seated, with her head hung low. I remain silent, hoping she will start the conversation. She complies.

‘So what can I do’ she asked?

I always continue such conversations with a verbal sigh; ‘Well, to tell you the truth, the most important thing to do at this point is to test you for other potential illnesses.’ I dare not use the word ‘diseases’ knowing full well at least from a professional point of view these options are potentially deadly or crippling in nature.

‘We can draw some blood tests now and schedule you for tests at 6 weeks, twelve weeks and twenty four weeks to confirm the results. During that interval, you must abstain from sexual intercourse. There is no safe sex. Do you understand?’

She nods in affirmation, while keeping her downward gaze.

I leave the room quickly and the nurse follows closely behind, as we discuss how many tubes of blood and what color and label need to go with them. This varies of course depending on the insurance provider. I don’t return to the room. There are too many people waiting to be seen is my excuse, but truthfully, I just don’t know how to deal with the unfolding drama in her mind. I think I have actually poured salt in a wound that won’t heal.