Not a Curse Not a Comfort

My enemies ignore me
My friends don’t seem to care
Neither notices my presence
It is as though I am not there

Neither notices my existence
They take no time to mention
I provide my friends no ease
For my enemies, no tension

In an effort to be neutral
To avoid taking a side
I prefer not to offend
I choose not to decide

I won’t make a selection
I might make the wrong choice
I just keep still and silent
Let no one hear my voice

I am neither curse or comfort
I am neither foe or friend
No one fears my presence
To both sides, I pretend

So then because thou art lukewarm, and neither cold nor hot, I will spue thee out of my mouth.
Revelation 3:16 KJV

For I am not ashamed of the gospel of Christ: for it is the power of God unto salvation to every one that believeth; to the Jew first, and also to the Greek.
Romans 1:16 KJV

Band Aid on His Cancer

I put a band aid on his cancers
I fed his hunger with a pill
I ignored the circumstances
That had really made him ill

I looked deep in my black bag
Stethoscope and BP Cuff
I assured him that in one week
My quick fix would be enough

I then took pictures of my doings
All good deeds must be recorded
When he asked: ‘ how much my camera?’
I said; ‘you can’t afford it!’

Then I bundled my belongings
Left behind unwanted clothing
Back to my air conditioned flight home
Full of self, full of loathing

Loathing the sights I again witnessed
Knowing his pill wore off that night
His cancer grows, his hunger increases
I am safe, away in flight

Do you too put band aids on the cancers?
Do you write the checks then sigh?
How on earth it got so bad?
Well, you are part the reason why.

For if you and I avoid the tumors
The wretched, filthy, destitute
We are both part of the blame
This truth we can’t refute

Give, go, or send is the commandment
That our God has long declared
Stop the quick and easy fixes
Don’t pretend I really cared

Stop the pills and, stop the potions
Short term, simple, cute, quaint answers
Lord when did I see you?
He answered; you put a band aid on My cancers

Matthew 25:40 And the King shall answer and say unto them, Verily I say unto you, Inasmuch as ye have done it unto one of the least of these my brethren, ye have done it unto me.

Isaiah 58:6 Is not this the fast that I have chosen? to loose the bands of wickedness, to undo the heavy burdens, and to let the oppressed go free, and that you break every yoke?

Isaiah 58:7 Is it not to deal thy bread to the hungry, and that you bring the poor that are cast out to yor house? when you see the naked, that thou cover him; and that you hide not yourself from your own flesh?

Isaiah 58:10 And if you draw out your soul to the hungry, and satisfy the afflicted soul; then shall your light rise in obscurity, and your darkness be as the noonday:

Don’t Let Them Rot

She was only a child
Just 8 years of age
He abused her young body
We expressed our outrage

They take multiple lives
Brag about what they do
No remorse, no regret
They should go to hell too

We demand justice at once
No parole, no appeal
Let them all rot in hell
That’s just how we feel

But the gospel I read
Is both justice and grace
Mercy and forgiveness
Intertwine, interlace

If it is only the good
The deserving the nice
The gospel is worthless
Not worth the Lord’s Christ

He died for the evil
Those we hold in contempt
The raped and the rapist
Those who would not repent

I must pray for them
God’s salvation is free
Bring them to Yourself Father
Just as You did me

Romans 5:6-7 For when we were yet without strength, in due time Christ died for the ungodly. For scarcely for a righteous man will one die: yet peradventure for a good man some would even dare to die. But God commendeth his love toward us, in that, while we were yet sinners, Christ died for us.

1 Corinthians 6:11 Know ye not that the unrighteous shall not inherit the kingdom of God? Be not deceived: neither fornicators, nor idolaters, nor adulterers, nor effeminate, nor abusers of themselves with mankind, Nor thieves, nor covetous, nor drunkards, nor revilers, nor extortioners, shall inherit the kingdom of God. And such were some of you: but ye are washed, but ye are sanctified, but ye are justified in the name of the Lord Jesus, and by the Spirit of our God.

Lying Down With Fleas

Oh you mustn’t lie down with the fleas
It is sure you will soon be scratching
No matter how clean you might be
These parasites you can’t avoid catching

At all costs avoid sleeping in gutters
No matter how convenient it seems
You will smell and look like those others
They are not really on the same team

Character means more than just winning
True victory recognizes the cost
You hold the high ground and you’re grinning
But it’s your integrity that you have lost

Can’t hold your head high and proclaim
That to get to the top you did wrong
If you betray Christ’s Jesus name
Your supposed victory won’t be for long

The winds blow strongest at the peak
So before you make the steep climb
Remember your fall will be swift
A dangerous and precipitous decline

1 Corinthians 10:12 Wherefore let him that thinketh he standeth take heed lest he fall.

1 Corinthians 15:33 Be not deceived: evil communications corrupt good manners.

Beyond The Parking Lot

Both of his eyes were tightly closed with tears streaming down his face. He covered the left eye, apparently it had the dust or something in it. “Doctor Johnson please help me. This pain is unbearable. Please, please do something quickly. Can you please help me, Mr. BJ cried? This is awful.”

Immediately, the differential diagnoses came to mind. Glaucoma? Detached retina? Retinal hemorrhage? Or, maybe just simply, dust.

I did this recitation at the same time as I reached for the emergency eye tray. In the emergency eye tray are an assortment of drops, ointments, solutions and instruments to retrieve foreign bodies. However, before doing anything, I must relieve his pain. A few drops of Proparacaine instilled and he is smiling. Proparacaine is a VERY EFFECTIVE AND VERY SHORT, BRIEF acting anesthetic.

Wow! Doctor Johnson! That is awesome. That is like magic. Thank you.

You are most welcome, I respond. Having said that, I ask the medical assistant to take Mr. BJ to the visual acuity chart. This allows me to see another patient and at the same time reconsider the broad differential of life and vision challenging illnesses. I see the patient with the sprained ankle, another with bronchitis and another who has been non-compliant with either her blood pressure or diabetes medications. I comfort one, treat the other and scold the last. Then, I return to Mr. BJ and his eye pain.

He is a bit calmer now. “Dr, Johnson those eye drops are excellent. I was able to pass the eye exam. I saw all of the letters clearly. Can I go now?

I respond. “Well let me examine you first sir. I want to make sure there are no foreign bodies or injuries to your cornea or conjunctiva. Having said that, I instill more of the Proparacaine and do a Fluorescein stain of the eye. This allows me to see under an ultraviolet light any evidence of scratches or scars to the outer eye. Then I take a cotton swab, turn the upper eyelid upside down and search for particles under magnification.

You are good to go Mr. BJ. I don’t see any damage to your eye. There is just some irritation that will resolve with these other prescribed antibiotic eye drops. Use these drops four times daily and within one week, your eye will heal. If you have any problems between now and then call me and I can refer you to an eye doctor.” I say this in hope that Mr. BJ will be healed and with the knowledge that he can’t afford or easily access and eye doctor. I pray to myself, ‘Lord please heal Mr. BJ’.

Mr. BJ is excited and so thankful. “That is good Dr. Johnson. The best part, I don’t have any more pain. I feel perfect. By the way, how long will these eye drops for pain work?”

I mumble an answer. “Probably until you get to the parking lot. Not much longer than that.”

Mr. BJ looks on me with both eyes wide open now, with unbelief. “You can’t be serious, Dr. Johnson. What happens after that?”

I go on to explain that the pain relief is temporary and these eye drops of Proparacaine are not available commercially as the intent is that Dr.’s do not prescribe this in an effort to not mask the pain. We need to know our patients are not in pain while in our presence. Once they are out of sight, they may as well be out of mind.

How often do I practice this ‘out of the parking lot’ medicine? How often do I ignore the fact that the Mr. BJs in my clinic are going back home to job loss, limited or no income, caring for very sick family members, addicted children and unsafe housing? How often do I ignore the beyond out the parking lot situations? I am very callous. As long as I have made you feel better, right here, right now, I have done my duty. The rest is up to you. The pain relief will last 6 minutes, 6 days, or 6 months, while the circumstances of Mr. BJ’s life remain unmet. Lord help me to think beyond the parking lot.

Colossians 3:12 Therefore, as God’s chosen people, holy and dearly loved, clothe yourselves with compassion, kindness, humility, gentleness and patience.

Hurt or Harm

This is meant to alert not alarm you
I pray you will know my intent
I’d rather be hurt than to harm you
My harsh words are not what I meant

When I do such an unkind action
When I speak a word that offends
It is too late to make a retraction
The fire once started won’t end

Forgive my presumptuous behavior
My actions that caused you such grief
I know it happens too often
This explanation gives no relief

But it does hurt me when I wound you
It is an offense to the God that I claim
I will ask my Father in heaven
Help me to love as He loves in His name

Romans 13:10 Love does no wrong to a neighbor; therefore love is the fulfilling of the law.

A Donut on Salad

Try this recipe. Make a nice fresh salad with Romaine lettuce, those tiny cute tomatoes, oil and vinegar dressing and a little pepper. Don’t add salt please. Everybody knows that salt is not good for you. Sprinkle some sesame seeds and maybe a bit of smoked salmon to add flavor. Then take a sugary, cream filled donut (chocolate icing if you like) and place it on top of the salad. Sounds good doesn’t it. Makes my mouth water. Go ahead and enjoy this concoction of self denial and self indulgence at the same time.

The problem with either swing of this dietary pendulum is that it tends to go to extremes. Along with these extremes, I become judgmental of people who are not eating or thinking as I do. There are the yogurt eating yoga people and the beer bellies who burp. I deny that I want to belong to either group, but they both have some appeal to me.

Paul recognized this when he wrote: Galatians 5: 16-17 I say then: Walk in the Spirit, and you shall not fulfill the lust of the flesh. For the flesh lusts against the Spirit, and the Spirit against the flesh; and these are contrary to one another, so that you do not do the things that you wish.

I become intolerant and critical of what I perceive as your moral failure not because you fail, but because I fail to recognize the moral failures in which I still indulge.

We divide ourselves into political, social, civic and even religious groups of salad or donut eaters. The truth is that neither is a perfect food. Any habit, custom, opinion can be taken to extreme.

The take home message to me is that I must keep a balance in order to recognize that I am human. I must keep a balance so that I am not intolerable or intolerant of the humans around me.

My advice, put a donut on your salad.

Better yet: Psalm 34:8 ‘O taste and see that the Lord is good’.

Are You Approved

Mr. AK layed the blueprints on the table. Then he spoke.

You need to look at the weight bearing girders and rafters on this wall. Also, you should know your heating ducts and conduits should run parallel. Lastly, since we have to redo the entire circuitry, you may as well add enough breakers to accommodate the special medical equipment.

I am listening. I understand the language but that is as far as it goes. AK is the contractor. He is describing some of the details for the renovation of the office. He may as well speak Gaelic. I nod in agreement. If this goes on I will nod to sleep. This is mumbo-jumbo.

Dr. Johnson, are you alright?

Mr. AK is either telling me the truth or he is a very confident liar. I don’t even know what questions to ask him. I feel uneasy questioning his sincerity and integrity. Is he really aware of the latest fire codes and city ordinances. Can I trust his information? Has he studied? Is he approved?

I now understand how Mr. AK felt when I advised him about his colonoscopy. He looked at me as though he fully understood. I pulled up my computer generated graphics on the screen.

You see here Mr. AK, your colon has three parts before it empties into your rectum. Your biopsy showed cancer in some of the polyps or growths. The polyps are here in the proximal transverse….,Mr. AK are you alright?

I take the medical lingo for granted. I study constantly and take the certification exams for one or another discipline yearly. I know my diagrams like the back of my hands.

It is important for me recognize that what I consider to be clear and concise descriptions are really mumbo-jumbo to most people. Am I telling them the truth? Or am I just a confident liar? Is he afraid to question by sincerity and integrity?

Have I really completed my latest professional credentialing? Have I studied? Am I approved?

The next time I show my computer graphics I must be aware that the lack of questions or the acceptance of whatever I say is not necessarily informed consent. I must study and I must be up-to-date. I must be prepared both intellectually and spiritually to be sensitive to the questions that Mr. AK has. I need to be approved. Am I ready to share the truth or am I just a confident liar?

Study to shew thyself approved unto God, a workman that needeth not to be ashamed, rightly dividing the word of truth.
2 Timothy 2:15 KJV

Conspiracy comfort

Some call me crazy
Some say I’m bizarre
But at least I can say
Who my enemies are

The witches and warlocks
The shamans soothsayers
They’re morphing into
Strong political players

They remind me of whom
I should trust and obey
Who is for and against me
Who will kneel and betray

And after all that is said
After all that is done
The rumors are true
If we haven’t won

‘They’ should never defeat us
Their news is all fake
This conspiracy is comfort
We won’t bend, bow or brake

W1GWAG

Us killing us

Where is the outrage?
Where is the fuss?
It’s also a crime
When it’s us killing us

Where are the protests?
The riots the looting?
Why are we silent
When we do the shooting?

Where are the speeches?
The media chatter?
Where are the voices
That cry black lives matter?

Politically correct
Self righteous convenient
Moral posturing
I’ve seen it

If we want to be truthful
This one thing we must
Be enraged and engaged
When it’s us killing us

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