I Would Rather Be Lonely

I would rather be lonely than love You
I would rather spend life with despise
For to love You is to want Your approval
And I feel good enough in my own eyes

I would rather spend life on my own terms
I would rather not have You decide
What is right, what is wrong, right, or left
I can’t with Your decisions abide

For to love You and follow Your commandments
Is to admit that I don’t know the way
And my ego can not understand it
If I don’t have my will and my way

I would rather spend eternity elsewhere
If it means submitting to what You say is true
If there is only one way to heaven
I don’t want it if that way is You

Such is the thought of my flesh
As I wrestle with submission to Christ
Each day this fight is afresh
To admit that He paid the price

My angry and unforgiving spirit
My selfish and lustful desires
I must relinquish if I truly love Jesus
And only He can extinguish these fires

So if it means that I truly want heaven
Then I must give Him total control
For the Father sent Him to save me
And to sanctify my body and soul

If I don’t want loneliness and sorrow
If I truly want life at its best
I must give my all today not tomorrow
And like a child, lay my head on His breast

John 14:15 If ye love me, ye will keep my commandments.

Joh 15:10 If ye keep my commandments, ye shall abide in my love; even as I have
kept my Father’s commandments, and abide in his love.